One low point after the other. I actually miss the times when "happy" was my default emotion.

I watched Remember Me last night. Mostly out of sheer boredom.. but I wanted to see how crappy RPattz was. Boy, was I wrong.

By the end of the movie, I was sobbing like an infant on the couch. Hm.

In other news, it's February. Going back to Tas in 3 weeks. Excited re: new beginnings and old friends but not really. Going back means going back to some places that remind me of you, being far away from the fam and friends, learning how to take care of myself instead of being babied by my parents and sister/relying on significant others, etc. But going back also means diving headfirst into second year uni, meeting new people, doing different things, and trying to get out of my comfort zone.

I think I set unrealistic expectations for myself.

If there was a way for me to literally step out of my skin and walk around without it, I would be so happy. Granted, it would be visually horrifying... but incredibly gratifying.

Post-CNY activities are as follows:

• following the Australian Open finals via Google because the internet is too crappy to stream the match
• writhing in pain from monthly cramps
• sitting, waiting, wishing

Yep, that's pre much it.

Year of the Dragon

Chinese New Year has been pretty rad so far. :)

At home with sissy (feat. mum's hand on the left) on the first day of CNY.

At the Intercontinental Hotel with sis and Uncle Woody last night! His American + Cantonese accent is the absolute best.

Two of the most precious people to have ever existed on the face of the freaking planet. Grandpa and grandma aka ah kong and popo :D

Happy times.

Dear self,

Eh, kau ni bodoh ke apa?

Starbucks with B went well. We talked about stuff/shit that happened last year, what has changed, plans for the future, etc. The conversation flowed easily, naturally, comfortably. Almost like old times. I have missed him, and I have really missed being friends with him. It was weird not speaking to him for almost a year.

"Is it normal to go shoe-shopping with your ex-boyfriend?"

"I think it's okay."

Thanks, Ben.